The answers to nothing and the tears for everything

 Oh, great! I just got all the answers. Selfish, egoistic, narcissistic, self-centered, egocentric, inconsiderate, careless, immature, confused, lost and spoiled. But those answers would solve nothing. Discovering them made me even more nauseous. So I stopped my thought from wandering. My brain is now stuck with these words and the facts that prove them and I swear they are quite lengthy.

 I started sobbing shortly after hearing your voice. But it was not about me missing you or you trying to convince me what had happened earlier wasnt my fault at all. I hardly cry. This time I cried because it was way too much to handle. I feel how my old world is falling apart in front of my eyes. I see my mistakes, my failures and my regrets. I realize what a foolish person I am! I wont even try to be a better one, what is the use anyway?